i'm tired.

of all of it.

bring me back to when it was okay to smile.for real.

hello jello

well well,

mid terms are over.

somehow i'm not all that relieved.

just particularly lazy. :/

i really don't know what to say, but i just wanted to relieve my blog of its dead-ness. i really gotta figure out this stupid skin too. -_-

omg. its really just starting to hit me. we're stepping down from most things now. i'm sad but i'm happy things are coming to an end. just so something new can have its turn, ya know? this past year has been full of ups and downs. and if i had the chance, i wouldn't change much. as they say, what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

i just hope that the -itchy'ness (as ieka would say) of mid terms won't ruin the holidays. but hey, since when has that really stopped me. plus its not like i'm that wild either.

"if we don't change the direction we are headed,
we will end up where we are going."
-chinese proverb

i'm like really addicted to E! and Miami Ink.

this is bad, but who cares. lol.

on Miami Ink, there was this girl who came in to get a memorial tattoo for her brother who took his own life. it was pretty sad la. but her tattoo was simple but still gorgeous.

"i don't ever wanna feel,

like i did that day,

take me to the place i love,

take me all the way."

- Red Hot Chilli Peppers

what happened to then, now?

you know what.
i miss it,
alot.
i miss you guys,
alot.
i miss being us,
together.
i miss the feeling that we all had years of friendship ahead of us,
confident that we did.
i miss the happy faces,
i miss the laughs,
i miss the movies,
i miss everyone.
i kinda miss form 3.
i miss c3.

as childish as it may have been,
honest to God,
it was good.
heck, it was great.

its nice when we all get together,
you know,
just hanging out.
but to tell the truth,
its not the same.

come back, kay?

5 freaking long months

hmm,

5 months.

stop,

pause.

every now and then i stop and try to remember everything that happened in those ten days. and i'm a little worried cause its fading. i hate to admit it but we've fallen out. we've let the space come between us. you guys reading this, lets make the effort. i know i haven't been. excuses come up. but we have to try. i need to remember. you know that feeling when you lose something. when you realise its lost, you try and remember it, the scent, the feel, the essence of it. and then you realise its really faint, so you hold on the whatever possible. okay maybe not, but something of the sort.

anyway,

miss ya loads!