a singer in a smokey room;

Hello hello.

So Christmas was good. Really good actually. Of course going home would have been the best but this was a decent second. So I'm happy about that.

It's really starting to get cold here. Which is insane, I need to wear like ten layers everytime I go out. Which sometimes persuades me to stay indoors alot. Although I am in dire need for some tobogganing or something! Wooh wooh.

I've been staying at my aunts place for the past week and a half and all my stuff had definitely accumulated. I have NO idea how I'm supposed to pack it all up in one tiny rolly bag and maybe a couple shopping bags (?) drag it down the street, onto the subway, through the Eaton Center to the bus terminal and onto the bus. This will be quite the ordeal! VERY exciting. LOL. I'll definitely let you know how THAT works out.

For New Years, I realized that this will be the first year that I'm actually doing something with friends, which is pretty cool. Me, Claudine and Portia and going down to London (ONTARIO) to stay with Jolene in her tiny town which is going to be so Gilmore Girls, haha, and we are going to partayyyy. Haha. It should be fun! I'm excited. Then it's back to school for all of us. My week and a half of break was pretty sweet but I am ready to go back to school. Kinda. Minus the actual school part. Okay let me rephrase that, I'm really excited and ready to go back to residence. LOL.

But yes, I realized how little I actually post of what I'm up to here anymore. Which is kinda silly, since I definitely don't get to chat much with EVERYONE cause of the time difference. Oh dear. I will definitely try and update occasionally to track my increasing roundness of face and of my (pretty boring) life in general. :)

STILL missing you guys tons. Can't wait for July to come! xoxo

synonymous with the spice girls;

Your objective is simple: World Domination.

Your motive is a little bit more complex: Evil - It's my nature

Stage One To begin your plan, you must first incapacitate a town mascot. This will cause the world to bite their nails, amazed by your arrival. Who is this evil genius? Where did they come from? And why do they look so good in a supervillain costume with gimmicks?

Stage Two Next, you must obliterate the town's water supply. This will all be done from a amusement park, a mysterious place of unrivaled dark glory. Upon seeing this, the world will wet their pants, as countless hordes of winged monkeys hasten to do your every bidding.

Stage Three Finally, you must prepare your arcane ritual, bringing about something that's really metal. Your name shall become synonymous with the spice girls, and no man will ever again dare sabotage your music career. Everyone will bow before your mind-boggling insanity, and the world will have no choice but to elect you dictator for life.

to save me from tears;

WHAAA. How is it possible that Glee only has like 12 episodes?? I am very sad. :( Now I have to wait till April! Wayy too long. :(

<3

last night I just wanted to have fun;

Inspiration please? I seem to have lost all focus and will to study. And I still have a week with four exams to go! FML. I should be outside playing in snow, I'm just sayin'. -.-

peacock girl;

I saw Nirosha Krishnamoorthy last night!! Haha. Yess guys be jealous. Nyeh I'm just kidding. Of course silly me forgets to take pictures. :( Boo that. But it was nice seeing a familiar face from home. Made me forget how far away we really were. Just like the countless afternoons in the cafeteria and everywhere else. :) Happy Holidays you guys. While I study study study. :(

mone-freaking-tary policy;

What Schulich does to you. 2 am, running on four hours of sleep and exams till the latest possible date. The eve of Christmas eve. Did I mention being bulat too? LOL.

live from Alberta;

I want to be able to do THIS! :D

i love you New York!

home is where the heart is;

Sometimes, no matter how good things are going, it would be nice to spend the holidays at home.

and leave teardrops everywhere;

Hello World,

I've been doing this rather ofter. Little spurs where I decide to make appearances on my own blog, where I should be updating you guys regularly as promised. I know, I'm terrible at this. When you guys don't need to know my every detail of my every day, I cross every t and dot every i. Yet when I'm the furthest away I could possibly get and rarely go on msn or whatnot, I go MIA. Heh, I can't figure myself out. :P

School is hectic. Or thats what I say anyways. Of course there's always tons of work to be done. But being the procrastinator I am, also a delusional prioritizer, I always have time for Facebook and dinner and outings and whatnot. LOL. Such is life. I feel so intimidated here, everyone is always on top of their work, freaking out about every minor detail. I feel a little too chill. Like I'm not worried enough about the work. Obviously I'm not doing spectacular, but I'm getting by. Definitely not failing anything. I don't know. I just feel like I'm missing some thing, I'm never worried enough. Haha. I know I have tons of work to do, tons of things to prepare for, yet I decide not to do them till the day before, etc.

We have exactly 7 more days of classes. Kinda. Frekkkkyyy. Then it's finals for me, till the fcking 23rd. My life is sad. Barely anyone is gonna be in residence at all! Kinda creepy. Empty hallways, no doors slamming all night long. Just silence. Ick.

Even so, I am looking forward to Christmas! Snow! (I HOPE) and just pure chill time. :D Heeh. Should be nice. Then it's back to school again! Can't believe we're already halfway through first year. So carayzeee.

We had a lovely 'house' dinner tonight! It was fun. Watched Pineapple Express for the first time! I know, I know, I never watch the epic movies on time. Fail. Anywho's. Just so you guys know, I do regularly stalk your blogs, and try and keep as updated as possible on your lives. Lets just say I do sit here in jealousy most of the time. :)

XOXO. <3

stars hollow;

Oh, curled up on the couch watching Gilmore Girls with a blanket. :) All I need is some hot chocolate!

what you know about little secrets;

I'm back at my aunt's for the weekend. School's been insanely busy but somehow I'm still surviving. Honestly sometimes I wonder what I'm doing here. Barely even half as stressed and busy busy as all the other kids in my program. Wth. Maybe I'm missing something or doing something wrong. Oh well, at least I still have a social life. Haha. Sleep on the other hand hasn't really been a priority. I think I have permanent eye bags now. :( Concealer shall be my new best friend.

It's obvious that I haven't been blogging much. Posts are weird and not flowyyy. So I'm just gonna post up some pictures. :)

emma, jolene and i

emma!

Claudine and I were Red & Blue M&M's for Halloween!

The Hippie and I!

i'm not dead;

Stats exam on a Sunday. :(

But whatevs, the weekend has been pretty good. Can't wait to get the exam over with, then we're going downtown, maybe, for some Halloween shopping. :D

monday midterms;

Yes, my life has come to this.

Tina and Brian work for the same recording company. Tina claims that they would be better off by increasing the price of their CDs while Brian claims that they would be better off my decreasing the price. We can conclude that

a. Tina thinks the demand for CDs has price elasticity of zero, and Brian thinks the price elasticity equals one
b. Tina thinks the demand for CDs has price elasticity equal to one and Brian thinks the price elasticity equals zero
c. Tina thinks the demand for CDs is price elastic and Brian thinks it is price inelastic
d. Tina thinks the demand for CDs is price inelastic and Brian thinks it is price elastic
e. Tina and Brian should stick to singing and forget about economics :D

HAHA! :)

are we just getting more lost?

So the mom left this morning. It was tough, but I do suppose it was better that me and my sister came down to Hamilton last night. Things are going okay, I'm spending a couple days here which should be nice. Then next week it's insane study week. Heck this week should be insane study week. Oh yes, and can you believe that we have a Stats mid-term on a Sunday? Kesiannya commuters. Plus it was supposed to be the weekend I visit Jon. Raincheck again. Boo that.

School this far has been pretty good. I suppose this will actually be the first weekend I'll be spending in campus, since like Frosh week. I've been pretty terrible like that. But it's been good, I wouldn't trade my past few weekends for anything in the world. We've been hanging out, going to movies, exploring Toronto, raiding Winners, museums, and everything else in between. :)

Oh yes, I watched Fame and Whip It this weekend! Amazingggggg. I definitely recommend Whip It! If you're an Ellen Page/Juno fan, its uber good! I finally know what Roller Derby really is. :)

So yes, just wanted to let you guys know that I haven't abandoned this good ol' place. And will try and post up some pictures here and there. ♥

birthday song;

Happy Birthday Kawan :)
I know you're having a wonderful time!

(Still wish you were here though. :P)

♥

because right now i feel it deserves to be blogged about;

Even though I am settling much better now, I probably haven't been blogging as much as expected because I was homesick, like hell. Yes I know, I always put on facade about university and how sure I was about everything, because honestly I really thought I was. I thought I'd get in there and take off right where I left of from at home, at Taylors. Where I had a wonderful big group of friends who had my back no matter what as I did theirs. I had home to go back to at the end of the day even if things didn't go so great. I had my awesome friends who I got to see on weekends, even though college was hectic. I didn't have to worry about where I was going to eat, or laundry, or cleaning up, or managing money. Yeah, I guess it is about time I grew up. But being out of my comfort zone totally threw me off.

I make it sound like university was the worst thing ever to happen to me, but trust me it's not. I'm making more friends, getting settled into classes and all that jazz. As we get more and more into the school year I think people will be around more on the weekends and we'll have more exciting adventures and all that. I hope. It's just a weird place that I'm in now. So yeah. :)

Omg I almost forgot the whole reason why I wanted to post this in the first place. Bestfriends, I still feel like we're gonna do another sleepover next weekend or go out shopping or have a totally guy/girly night in and of course totally load up on stories! I too still think that I'm gonna be able to meet up with you guys next week. Go to a movie, hang out at the mall, watching freakky movies at Aqils, all the random whatevers that we do together. Obviously we will still do those things once everyone gets back together, but it's just that funny feeling in the pit of my stomach telling me I can't do it right at this moment if I wanted too. The bottom line is, I miss you guys like hell.

Even so, I am so glad everyone is having a wonderful time everywhere. I'm beyond excited for all of you! ♥

so put your hands up;

Okay I'll make this a quick one. Gosh this blog is kinda slowly dying so I must salvage it. I'm actually sitting in a library trying to get work done. If only I had though of this sooner I might not be forced to do this now. Whatevs, I'm a pracrastinator oh yeah. :D So classes are slightly better this week. I'm still quiet as hell. I miss World Issues classes where I could blab on about whatever. That was fun. I didn't feel so stupid. Heeh. :D

Tonight is the Yorkfest, which a whole bunch of bands that everyone here seems to know and I'm just like oh yeahh, The Stills woohoo (which only slightly kinda rings a bell, yess I'm sad like that, cannot dload songs yet la!) But yesss, IF I finish this stupid assignment then I'll go, if not in the library I shall stay. Other than that, I had a really good weekend with Shirlene and the sister in Hamilton. :) And this weekend Mom, Kach and I are doing the whole touristy Toronto thing cause New York is a no go, this time round. But soon enough, I'll be there! Promise! :D

Is it wrong to be looking at buses leaving campus longingly and wishing Thursday night would come sooner?

Back to business history! Toodles.

♥

i'm on a boat;

Things have been hectic and insane. Okay not THAT crazy. But the workload is like OMFG! Yess, business school is veryyyyyy different. I miss ICPU. I miss having that comfort zone. Even so, I just wanted to quickly post something in between doing the Stats homework I don't feel like doing and our house meeting soon.

I think I've kinda turned into an introvert since I've been here, but hopefully that will change soon. The girls on my floor are cool. I'm happy I've finally made some friends. Haha. So I'm not just the loner sitting in my room. So yesss, food here is very DIFFERENT. Not like foreign, just hamburgers and pizza everyday. Thank god for salads and fruits and cereal. I think I'm gonna curl up and die once my supply in my tiny fridge runs out. Yess, I'm too lazy to go off campus for anything, except to see my mom of course. I've become a real mommy's girl, which I totally don't think is a bad thing. Maybe I've always been, but it's prominent to me now that I can barely go a day without talking to her. :(

Niagara and boat cruise over last weekend was fun, probably the highlight of my week so far. Oh gosh, it's hard to believe I've only been here a little over a week. Feels like forever. :( But again, I'm just whining. Things aren't bad. They're actually pretty good. My room is becoming more and more cosy. Spending the weekend in Hamilton with my sister and Shirlene. And my birthday last week was pretty good to. I should probably get around to posting some pictures up! Will do soon. Loves and still miss you guys like hell. Don't have too much fun without me, though that's virtually impossible. ;) ♥

the start, apparently;

Hey peopleeee,

The past few days have been frosh week at Schulich and I've just moved into res. So its Vanier Frosh now for the rest of the week. Things aren't great yet, and I miss you guys like hell. Who knew nothing could really have prepared me for this. Hope you all are having an awesome time at uni or whereever.

:) ♥

so many locks, not enough keys;

Okay, due to the lack of interesting posts, I shall give this another try. Haha. :) So these past couple days have been cool. I'm up at Susie's cottage for the weekend with the parents and their ten closest friends or something. I know I've never been much of a partier let alone very good, but boy do THEY know how to party like its 1975 or something. (Yes I throw in random years like that to sound cool) It's 12am in the morning and their still sitting around the campfire and in the hot tub telling stories, laughing, joking, drinking and all that rock and roll while I'm sitting here in bed. :D Talk about being a good kid. -.-

Anywho's, I love the charity stores around here. It's insane how cheap some of the stuff is. Bags for like $2, I bought a dress for $4, earrings for 50 cents, badges and shit. Like I must've bought like 8 little different knick knacks for $3.75 today. Pretty awesome. :D

Oh right, the other night I went for a little reunion with basically our extended family plus my moms cousins whole family. That was fun, of course, I was like the shortest one there, excluding my 8 year old second cousin (or something like that). But yeah, the Dutch gene's sure do make them all grow tall, except for me. And my sister looked average in height in comparison. So that makes EVERYONE (but me) almost 6 ft tall OR MORE! I realised how much I like feeling tall in Malaysia. :D Hehe.

But yeah, so far the summer has been pretty great. Uni stuff starts on Tuesday. Not looking forward to the commute as much. I kinda wish Schulich could be like the other colleges and start stuff AFTER we move in. It might just make a little more sense. But what to do? :( Shall post pictures of fbook soon though I'm still accumulating. Up to almost 800 by now. Not really THAT much considering its already two and a half weeks. But I doubt I have the patience to go through and edit that much anyways. :D

Oh right, I also got some (not so great) crazy shots of the damage that the tornado did that hit Collingwood last week. That was just shocking driving through there. Would not have wanted to be there when that happened, though no one did get hurt.

Okalie dokes, till next time. LOVES <3

party everyday;

Back in Toronto. I finally finished reading The Host! Its a good read, super long though, but I suppose once you get into it its okay. I'm happily reading my Sarah Dessen book now. Whee. But its kinda damp, all my books are kinda damp and I'm not too sure how they ALL got like that? Hmm. Anyways, this isn't much of a blogpost, but I didn't wanna just leave my blog hanging like that. Its boring enough as it is. Hopefully I'll upload some pictures soon enough. Or not. We'll see. Keep in touch my peeps. ;) Lovesssss. <3

clear skies & sing-a-longs;

Haha, because I'm awake at the odd hours instead of when you guys are normally awake, I shall blog. :D

Yes, so yesterday was the day we headed down to Hamilton to visit the grandparents. (I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I'VE ONLY BEEN HERE TWO DAYS!) So we went over to St Elizabeth to say hi to Oma, her place is pretty nice, like a little extract from the house. Took her to lunch at the Vietnamese place on Cannon. Ohh yummers. Haven't had good pho in forever! Then we headed on over to St Peters to visit my grandpa.

I won't lie and say everything is fine with them, cause in the three years since I've been here, the change has been so great. But their happy, and the places that their at is good for them. Oh how I've missed them so so much.

While visiting grandpa, we were hanging out downstairs for a little while near where the piano was. Mom asked me to go play something. And no I've never been very good and am terrible at remembering songs. But I went to the piano anyways and looked at some of the books they had. Then this lady wheels on over and presses some keys on the piano telling me to play. There was no use fighting with her cause she was super insistent, so I sat down and started playing Fur Elise over and over cause that's all I could remember off the top of my head and the lady definitely wouldn't let me stop. It was pretty funny cause the lady was singing along telling me to play and grandpa was calling for me, saying "Nikki Nikki Nikki!" Till I got up and escaped the piano. Phew.

I love my grandparents. <3

but the dawn is breaking;

so funny. -.-

gila rindu ohkay.

It's six am here, and I'm wide awake. Oh no. Seeing the grandparents today, a little nervous. But I don't feel like I'm here, here, till I see them. <3

such a smile, but a sweetheart;

So yess, I've arrived in the large Canada-land. Been here exactly (almost) fifteen hours. And yess, (I deserve a pat on the back for) staying awake all day! Yay me! :D

Somehow it doesn't feel that different or weird or any of that. More like I'm just staying at a relatives place (which I am) back home. And the rest of it, just feels like I'm on a temporary holiday. Kinda.

Oh! I went to visit my University today. Quite impressed lah. The place is like hugeeeee. I only walked though three buildings and want to pengsan. But yeahh, then got a little tour by a girl who just finished her first year at Schulich so that was really cool. Made me a little less nervous about starting university. I was really really pleasantly suprised by the whole thing, place and people. :)

Drove around town a little more before heading home. :) Suprisingly of the first day here, I was the only one who managed to stay up all day. Yay me.

Okay, sorry my writing is super vague and discontinuous. :(

Oh yeah, The Time Travellers Wife is out here. TODAY. Gotta read that damn book asap. Still stuck on The Host. Oh boy how my reading has just spiraled downhill.

Anyways going for ice cream at McD's. Toodles. :)

MISS YOU ALL MUCHO!

do you know what's worth fighting for?

Again & a million times over. I'm so so sorry for not blogging lately. Been spending lotsa lotsa time with the loves. Its impossible for me to believe that this time tomorrow I'll be on the plane.

I guess thats why I haven't been blogging much. Cause if I start talking about leaving, and how upset I'll be, I'll crumble. And I just can't. Not yet.

I have been getting tons of the sweetest messages and calls. Really, it feels like my birthday or something. But all of you guys (my friends la) have been the bestest of the best people for me to have been able to meet and spend time with cause NONE of it was ever a waste. Not a second.

My heart is all in jumbles and full of incomplete sentences professing my undying love & gratitude & thanks for all of you. One year, and we'll be back. All of us.

Here's to what the next few months have in store for us.

(I'm sorry for this mush of words that make little sense, sedih la)

Eih, boring nya this blog. :(

(Haha, I probably won't hear myself speaking Manglish for a while. Boo.)

countdown;

Everyone always talks about how leaving really shows you who your true friends are and aren't. I don't think that we need that much of a distance to figure it out. Who you see most during your holidays are evident enough. Who you make the effort to call, and who makes the effort to call you. Even better, though things like conflicting schedules or whatever it may be, keeps you apart. When you get back together, not a single thing has changed.

If there's one thing I've learned. There's no need to rush and cram to see everyone as my days before departure are counting down. Because I'm content. I've been seeing the people I've been wanting to see all along.

circus;

<3

i got you, i got you on my mind;

Hey guys,

Yeah, sorry for the absence. I was in Melbourne for a good ten dayss, then came back without much of a blogging mood, thus this whole MIA deal. Haha.

I know I should blog about my trip to Melbourne which was undeniably awesome. :) And I had a wonderful time with awesome people! But I think pictures do more of the talking then any string of words I can conjure up, so go on down to Facebook and check out the album la. :)

About my busy busy life now. :P I know I should be going out 24/7, seeing all those people I need to see. I know its kinda wrong timing. But I feel like I need some chilling time. And all you people I love are more than welcome to join me. But yeah, I'm going at a little slower pace these past few days. Thus the lack of things to blog about. Or maybe I just don't feel like documenting every minute of my life. Yet. Haha.

On a different note, I just checked out the itinerary for Vanier Frosh Week '09. I think it'll be fun. I hope. Entah la, excited but nervous. The usual jitters. :D

Toodles.

colourblind;

by Yasmin Ahmad

TOO FREAKING CUTE :D

say, it's been a while;

Yello Banana.

I'm home. :)
A gabajillion pictures to be posted! <3

ghosts in the eyes;

I know, it's been forever since I've posted actual pictures, from actual events here on my actual blog. Haha. Random la. I just figured, these pictures are pretty blog worthy. Though, I probably should remind myself to be in more pictures next time. Any other pictures you people need will be on Facebook, where it's been all along.

Off topic : Should I start watermarking pictures? :S

♥

because they do;

Oh gosh, I just realised as I saw it there that my profile picture and the picture from my latest post have me wearing the same tank. -_- In my defense, it's my pj's. Haha. So yes, this post is here, just to push down the previous post, just a little. :)

Gosh, I just spent the past couple hours watching the last few episodes of OTH and crying my eyes out. Doesn't everyone just love the happy endings? Its insane how much these shows can get into our heads. And though I've always loved watching other people live their life instead of my own, maybe it's time to give those DVD's a break. I've kinda been glued the couple past weeks.

That is why my sister and I shall be going on our little adventure that we planned forever ago to Melbourne! (and the crowd goes wild! woooooh!) Yes, despite all the uncertainty and challenges in concern to the trip, its finally over, and I can start packing! Just what I needed. :) I think it's gonna be awesome, getting out of town for a little while. Test out my tolerance for the blistering cold. And spend some much needed time with KSM. :)

So yes, all you people who are still here in KL. Pretty pretty please give me a call when I get back. Did I mention that we NEED to go out? Just in case I didn't make that clear,

I NEED TO SEE YOU PEOPLE. ASAP. :D

So yesss, loves, peace out, or whatever is that cool lingo you kids using nowadays. :)
♥

skeptics & true believers;

op kdtb fail;

Time takes its toll on people. Or maybe its just all this free time that is starting to get into our heads. Haha.

It's funny. Lately the question of "Are you excited or are you sad to leave?" But that's the funny thing. Something so new and so different from what I've been doing, we've all been doing is waiting for me & us out there. Just a couple months away. And I'd be lying if I said I wasn't excited or sad. That's the thing. I am so beyond excited to go, to start fresh, that whole new beginning shit has been something I've looked forward to for a very long time. At the same time I'm terribly sad, sad to go, sad to have to leave and say goodbye to all these people, new and old, that have become so close to me, and that I won't have that comfort of having the just a phonecall or a short drive away. But hey, there's always Skype (me & msn are not on cool terms. always gets me in trouble -_-) and emails. Heck, lets go oldskool. Snailmail. :D Maybe I'll pull out the letter writing set my oma gave me.

Now now, there's still a month to go. So lets make the best of it people. Peace out.

I can't lie though, fall fashion. Whee. :D

ugly girl;

I think a wall is asking for persistent contact with my head.
Anywhere you can suggest without waking my parents and the neighbours.
Somewhere with good drainage so the blood doesn't become a problem.

trying to define everything about me;

FML

guitar geek;

YAY. I rock at Guitar Geek. Kinda. :D Now I just need to find a drums version and I can start practicing for Rock Band. Heh, love that game. I so wish I had PS3 plus two guitar/bass, drums and the mic. Good times, good times those were.

So the holidays have been a good cycle of sleep, wake up, chill at home or go out, eat eat eat, come home at insanely reasonable hour (thanks to unofficial but strictly enforced 10pm curfew), go online, get bored, read, sleep. Don't you guys just get excited by the sound of it? :D Hah.

Last week the fam went on a trip down to Bandung. Shopping paradise much? The flight there and back was terrifying, of course the seat could barely move back an inch so we were pretty much sitting at a 90 degree angle the whole two hours. PLUS, on the way back we were sitting in the very last row. This means, no reclining of seats whatsoever, or in my case broken seat, and no more food by the time food cart reaches us. Boo. Nonetheless, the hotel was really nice and smack in the middle of one of the shopping districts. This meant outlet malls right next door. Hell yeah! Needless to say, my sister and I did our damage! My sister especially. My mom was able to do her fair share too, so that was good! Though my dad grumbled through some parts of it, we all know he secretly loves shopping and watching us shop. Muahaha.

The volcano was actually nice and the hike down was fairly pleasant. The downer was just all the scams that ruined the mood. Boo, shall not elaborate on unhappy things. :(

Anywhos, I figured my blog was becoming mundane, and I don't think this post did much good. But I just had to test out blogging on my new laptop. Wheeheeeee.

:D

it just ain't the same, old ways have changed;

Needless to say, I LOVE collaborations. :)
I think it brings out the best in people.
Don't laugh at us. Haha. ;)



♥

make a little space, to make a better place;

I've been going through YouTube videos of Micheal Jackson, after watching his number one hits today with the gang. I've got a couple. :) But this has to be my ALL TIME FAVOURITE. Considering its basically the theme song of all our ballet charity concerts. Plus, this video especially got me on the verge of tears. Hormones. "I like the way you move" is definitely another fave! Oh, like I was thinking, it's funny how after watching a bunch, the lyrics seem to just roll off your tongue naturally. Proof of what everyone has been saying, MJ, the musical icon of generations. ♥

hope and a brand new day;

What you're looking for,

has been here the whole time.

you're like a rocket in my mind;

My mommy is running in the KL Marathon tomorrow. She's doing the half marathon, nonetheless PROUD MUCH! :) So here's a little luck, for reaching such a big marker.
WIN WIN WIN! ;)

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

would you make a difference in the world?

I still have the "snowball" from our GIN workshop at the Hear Us Out II Conference. Everyone's pledge to make a difference. I'm kinda glad that I kept that, though it just sits there in my room. It's still my daily reminder. Reminds me of Ms Christie, of Bangkok, of the people, Ryan's Well Foundation, that village we helped in Kenya, of the countless times we pledged to make a difference.

So I guess this is more like a gentle reminder. Cause I know how easily it is the get swept away in the moment and forget.

We Still Can, We Still Will.

banoffee;

Happy Nineteenth Birthday
Jilly Willy Billy Yilly Dilly! :D

Hope you had an awesome one!
<3
I thought 25 was better than 19!
(don't kill me :D)

♥
13 years and still counting!

do you believe in outerspace?

In Singapore for the day tomorrow. :)

Shoppingggg, again.

Random but I'm missing late night/morning Rock Band Sessions. Especially the sound of Pras's voices which worked its ways into Andrew's parents hearts. Haha. Most of all I enjoyed the simple thrill from randomly exploring the city. Because it didn't matter which bus we got on and where it went, cause we'd eventually end up where we planned to go. Plus I'm super pro on figuring out the train. Not that difficult to figure out in the first place, but let me feel my sense of accomplishment for that! :D

Kinda weird feeling, sitting here is "my" room in JB.

Toodles peeps.
xoxo

shove your hope where it don't shine;

This blog has gone pretty dry hasn't it?

I would apologise except that blogging which used to be something fun, something I knew I could look back on and the words would instantly send me back to that time and place. Now, it has resorted to becoming something so tedious, my mind filled with thoughts which made me conclude;
"If you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all."
So I didn't.

Life's been good, except for my worries that I've such limited time left, with people I won't see in a really long time, come August. And yet, I go through the motions, go out. Somehow I still end up against the wallpaper, watching people, their reactions, emotions, laughter, tears, heartbreak, happiness. And yet all I am is there, emotionless, no random, interesting,quirky thoughts passing through my mind. Just there. Blank.

Don't get me wrong, I love my family and friends to death. I just feel as if I'm not totally there. Haven't been for a while.

thats where i wanna be;

I can't. I just can't accept that ICPU is really over.

Again, us, around those damn tables in the cafeteria.

Priceless.

<3

when we look back will our jokes still be funny?

Tomorrow is graduation.
We the class of June 2009, are graduation.
Graduation is tomorrow, for us.

No matter how many times I say it, I cannot seem to fathom that ICPU has ended. We the kids who were considered the "super seniors" of ICPU, after three semesters, are graduating. It weird, something over a year and a half can have such an impact. Then again, ten days in Outward Bound, was enough for me to get all nostalgic for a very long time. Needless to say, this is definitely has made its mark in my books.

Entering college, I was all prepared, maybe try and be someone a little different. Of course we all end up the same as we always were all along. No matter how hard you try and fool yourself. My first ICPU friend, I won't forget, Mr Yuvanes Kumar. Hehe. Who would have thought, a year down the line, we'd be this close. Then of course Niro, my funny, loud, crazy, obsessive friend who is totally and utterly in love with Mr Meyer. The girl who befriended this weird girl, sitting by herself in front of class. Maybe the identical timetables were a blessing in disguise. :) Of course Kim and Sash were one of the first friends in OS too. Then Niro and I decided to invite Aqil over to our table during our four hour long break on fateful afternoon. And from there Nabeel joined us after English everyday. Nawwar of course too, our first semester friend, oh we felt cool. Sabrina, Tiya, John too. Sean Kingston, random trips to Pyramid for lunch and countless random afternoons in the cafeteria or AC. ICPU Season 1. Haha.

Not to mention the teachers, Mrs Tan and Mr Mac. Both amazing educators. Mr Mac, was an unbelievable person. It was such an honour to have had him as a teacher, nonetheless a mentor, a friend. He was never hesitant to lend a helping hand. Introduced us to the whole ICPU style. Was never unfair or judgemental. Amazing teacher, who I would never dare to forget. Come to think of it, he had always predicted that I would go to York. If I had had the chance to let him know. We planned to go visit him, up in Bolton. No matter where we ended up. He is deeply missed.

Back to my reminiscence. Those summer holidays were really good. We did all sorts of crap. And when the new semester begun, we were nothing but enthusiastic. Starting a new semester, boy were we excited. So the gang expanded and grew. Our new friends, Dhanraj, Pras, Aryan, Daniel. We were loud and probably annoyed half the people in the cafeteria. Stressed over calculus like shit. Maybe that was just me. Movies on Friday nights. Random outings. Pool. Wanoy, Zoe, Shiori, Kamal, Tania. We all branched out. It was good. Never forgetting Mr Ari of course. LAN classes. Funny, but I'm glad I passed first time round. It was the one semester I felt like I was outside my own body, watching everything, everyone. Open houses, Eighteenth birthdays.

Christmas break. The break I needed. Nawwar, Nabeel and the bunch graduated. This time we were a little scared for another new semester. Knowing no one would ever replace these awesome friends. Nabeel left (I cried buckets). It was all weird, a little different. Very new. But we adjusted, and needless to say, it was unforgettable. We made awesome new friends. Fresh blood. Haha. :) Andrew, my kawan down the street. Aaron, technically we knew each other since Eng 4U, but only really became friends this sem. Jaskiret, and his 6 am bullshit. Yusur, our queen on gossip. :) Accounts. World Issues. Econs. One girl and eight guys Morning Mcdonalds breakfast. After school movies. Three girls and a guy lunches. Mr Saint, Ms Christie, Mr Moaz. Hear Us Out II, Student Council, Water Wednesdays, Econs Edu Fair, GIN Conference. Shit, so much, beyond so much happened this semester. Friendships formed, long table discussions, heartbreaks, fights, tears, laughter, joy. Every emotion.

Prom, oh gosh, prom. Prom was good. It was everything and more. We had fun, we laughed, we danced. Plus the food was good. Getting ready in the room was hilarious, screaming from end to end. Rushing to get everyone's hair done. Freaking over makeup. Trying to fix wardrobe malfunctions. Corsages. (Thanks Dhanraj!) It was good, and I'm glad I got to spend it with my friends. After, as we sat around on the floor in a circle. It hit me. We all had our way to go. After tomorrow, all piling out of here, one after another. But that night, it didn't matter, we laughed and talked and it was just like all those afternoons in the cafeteria. We were just us, together, in the moment. No matter what, everyone had been through, personally, or together. It really did seem like we were all happy. :) Good times. I have to say, I was a little choked up as we sat at AC the next afternoon, like we had, countless times before.

feel good;

So school's out! It's absolutely insane.

We've spent the past week prom hunting. Tons of dresses, shoes, bags and accessories. Nonetheless it was fun. I got to dress up my friends in all these outrageous dresses. :D Happy happy. Prom was the day before yesterday, though it feels like yesterday.

I'd really like to go into detail about prom and stuff, but I should save that for a proper entry, devoted entirely to it. For now, I shall just say, I'm alive! And shall return to the blogging scene, once I get my lazy ass off the couch watching Gilmore Girls. :D

Loves!

I think the whole world's addicted to the drama;

This is it. The final leg.

And by Tuesday I'll officially be done.
Well done, the graduating class of June 2009. :)
<3


But for now,
I shall go bury myself in my notes.
Joy.

broken strings;

Yesterday, dreams were shattered.

Today, it doesn't seem as bad.

Maybe Blogger freaking out on me and
not letting me blog my heart out was a blessing in disguise.

It's amazing how easily we allow ourselves to let one failure cloud all the other successes.
No Queens for me, I suppose.

keep the faith;

College really is closing on in us. So surreal how it's almost over. But first I have to get through tomorrow. :)

sell out;

Sell Out. A Malaysian Film.

Based on what I've seen in the trailer, it looks amazing. In addition to all the raving reviews, I'm looking forward to watching it. Malaysian films, kicking ass. I like. :)

To all Taylorians, there will be a screening this Thursday after school. The director Yeo Joon Han and some of the actors will be there. I'm definitely looking forward to it. :)

sixty seconds

A week and a half left of college. Somehow, this last week here is about to be the most hellish of all three semesters. Talk about work overload. As amazing as all the things that we did this semester were and I would never trade any of it for the world, I'm somewhat glad that it is coming to an end. It's been a long one, but I'm excited for these next couple weeks to unwind with the ones that matter.

Lets just say I've been missing out on a little more than I'm happy about. :( Soon soon. Just this last leg. Cause I've got only a little drive left in me. Somewhere along the way I have to decide where I want to go to university. There's some conflict of interest left there, making the decision just that liiiittttlle bit tougher. Now if only Queens would decide to grace me with a reply.

Xoxo

ode to follow;

Decisions as tough as they may be, or as clear as they may be, should always be, i believe, for yourself. For anyone else, it would end up in dissatisfaction. So do well for yourself. Cause at the end of the day, you're the only one that truly gives a shit. Followers never end first.

men in tutus;

The Principle Dancer of Men in Tutus
dancing Don Quixote

That dude, on pointe, is probably better that half of us out there.
Haha.

keeping the moon;

Old pictures. I know.
But I'm so ridiculously backlogged,
In the midst of the crazy assignments
seems like perfect timing!

<3

Sorry for MIA ing,
I guess I really am having writers block at the moment.

round table;

because it's a saturday afternoon,
and my wandering mind always comes back to this.
♥

wave it up real high;

The STUDS (Student Teachers Utterly Devoted to Studying) last day. :( Booo.
We had a party for them, courtesy of Period 6, after class on Friday. We did all sorts of random things; sang songs, danced, ate, showered them with gifts, lepaked and just had fun. They definitely had added some spice to our daily routines in college. Not to mention eye candy :D

They will be missed!

Party Animals :D Showing them how to 'get down' at 3 in the afternoon! ;)

♥ STUDS :)
Ms Lyndsey, Ms Jordan, Ms Sheila & Mr Angel

<3 Ms Jordan

Us, Ms Jordan and her personalized yoga mat and Mr Angel and his personalized guitar
We almost made them cry!
(and yes we like to 'personalize' things! :D)

Happy Earth Dayyy :)

Today was an exceptionally good day. Now if only I can get my work done and I'll be all set! Oh and THANK YOU to everyone who helped out at the Water Wednesday booth. We did well! Let's keep this up for next week. Oh, we all got really into the whole Earth Day thing at school. I bought pins from the Environmental Club, put my hand print on the banner and doodled a little, and bought a photograph! I should have bought a pet cactus, but was going broke! :(

But yes, I had a happy Earth Day,
and hope you did too!
♥

that summer;

it can't be wrong to wish for snow
or at least
a little change of scenery?

i must be dreaming;

clutter that is my
life shoe cupboard

all for you my daisy;

I logged onto Blogger realizing that I've 444 posts. So I need one more so its not so ... die-die-die. :)

I've probably backspaced this post a million times. Cause I'd really like to enlighten you guys with some deep post about the world, or people, or make my life sound even remotely interesting. Unfortunately, my fingers don't do that thing where they type cool stuff without my brain telling them to, or catch that really cool phrase from the song that no one listens to without having to go through the entire playlist and listen really carefully. So yes, I've spent one minute of your life telling you what I can't do for you. :)

But since I'm already rolling. I wanna be able to dress like Camille from Childhoodflames and Rumi from FashionToast. Draw and paint like Danny from Igor + Andre. Take gorgeous photo's like all those awesomely talented/artistic people out there. And and have tons of cash at my disposal for I'm not sure what, but I'll think of something! :D

Yeahh, okay, the whining thing isn't working that great for me. On a lighter note, I just have to mention that last Friday was insanely fun. :) From the hilarious incident in Starbucks that probably got us blacklisted, to the waxing place, to bowling like hooligans, to watching Friday the 13th, to mamak to sum it all up. Cause we're cool like that. We should do it all again. :) Random pictures, props to Andrew Tan. (don't mind the editing, it's something about dots and spots :S)

Bananaphone Bowlers :D

The SS1ers.

Me, Jaws, Wei Lin, Aida, Aqil, Jas
:)

cue the sun;

two kids, one love,
who cares if we make it up?

i ♥ igor & andre

1,2,3,4;

It's eleven thirty and I should probably go to sleep. Unfortunately productivity hasn't been my strong point today. I've been on a downloading mania streak in the past hour, lets hope these songs are good. :) Tomorrow is Water Wednesday, so please, you Taylors people, come support us at the main campus. Shall update on Hear Us Out II soon! It was awesome btw. :D

just smile;

I count myself lucky to have days where I can talk about things that matter, laugh my heart out, and smile because I mean it. I count myself lucky, for these happy days. :)

:)

suprise centre;

Hello lo. :)
This week has been buried in the finishing touches of our Hear Us Out II.
And I am over the moon, excited. :)
Yay, today was the global warming workshop,
we're starting to have more fun with our mindmaps,
Haha. :D See?

Rock&Roll Day :)
This week is Dress Up Week too!
Fun la :D

Queens is absolutely killing me with the suspense,
They especially like to drag on torture, i bet they are all laughing. :P

i was just thinking how we don't have a song;

Hear Us Out II,
Its around the corner.
Before the Transmission is Lost.

***

This was how I spent my friday afternoon. We rehearsed with the World Issues students for the show, then headed on down to Pyramid for shopaholic. Me loves. Majorlyyy. <3

OOH, cameraaaa.

"Eyh, the guard is staring at us wei!
And he has a baton!"

Blue Yaris Buddy :)

You would never have guessed we were burning our asses off,
sitting on the cement floor.

Finally, we ALL jumped!
(wink wink Wanoy! :D)

Sandy Dandyy. SHOPAHOLIC BABEH! :)

Lala, Hummm! :) She was sad she paid RM4.50 for a float. :(

"Ooh TROLLEY!
Cepat, we got fifteen minutes to get out of here!" :)

Hahaha. Definitely enjoyable!
<3
We need more weekends like this. :)